Behind of Me....

It's april 2011...adadaadahhh..pnya lama nda update ni..apapun bnyk sekali pengalaman yg saya telah lalui sblm ni..bnyk perkara yg mengembirakn dan bnyk jg bha yg myedihkan...tpi bilang d hitung kegembiraan yg sa dpt perolehi,itu tdk dpt menandingi ketidakgembiraan sa sblm ini..lebih2 lagi tahun ini,..aduiii sa rindu dengan diri saya sblm ini bha...sa tdk mo mcm ni...saya kadang2 tertekan dengan apa yg sa lalui sekarang...tertekan dengan situasi saya msa ni...actually sa mmng boleh hadapi semua ini,tpi kenapa saya masih blm dpt terima diri sa seadanya...amaaaa tekanan mental bha ni...ehehe...tdk la bha,.saya bkn teda sepa2 tmpt mo meluah,.utk semua ini,ada lebih baik sa bersendirian,.bkn sa tdk perlu kwn,ada masa kita perlu bersendirian utk menerima semua ini..tpi tdk tau la kalo ada yg concern sma kita kn...biarkan larh mereka dgn hal mereka dulu kn..hheehehe..utk tahun ini,sa harap sa dpt apa yg sa mo,..sa mo kereta!!!!...ahahaha...teda2 bha..hehehe...tdk kaye,..utk tahun ni,sa mo sa lebih tabah mengharungi segala kesedihan yg bakal saya hadapi nnti,..sa tdk mau kerana pekara yg tdk masuk akal sa hilang arah,sa mc punya ramai kwn bha,.tpi utk mencari rakan yg benar2 kita percaya memang satu dlm dua juta bha...dalam kesempatan ini juga sa mo b'syukur dan b'trima kasih utk kawan baik saya Melvin Salleh..saya rasa dia ni larh kwn yg satu dlm dua juta org..walaupun dia ni muda dari saya tpi bnyk yg sa pelajari diri dia,..saya harap persahabatn kmi kekal slmanya,ssh bha mo cri kwn mcm dia ni...btul2 susah,..tq jg utk suma kwn2 yg slama ini memahami sama sa,..luv u all...eehhee...nda lupa jg yg tdk suka sa tw yg benciii sma sa...sa tdk mo bencii kamu bha...jgn la bha mo b'musuh2...huhuu...God help me to love each other....

Down n down.......

argggghhhhh.....i didn't ask to be born like this,...uwaaaaaahhhh...almost everyday i think about this.....aduii napa la hdup sa mcm ni,knpa la sa lahir macam ni?..knpa sa tdk mcm urg lain yg sa nmpk ok ja...apa bha sb sa kana lahir mcm ni,..sa tdk tau owhhh...huhuu...sa sdh buat yg terbaik dlm hdup sa,tapi masih jg ada yg tdk baik...ntah d mana lagi sa mo kc luah suma apa yg ada d utak sa...sa tdk puas ati bha sma idup sa ni...mo share sma member pun susah,bkn segan tapi i will expect thier answer...wif God?..yeah i alwaysss tell Him abt my problemsss..but i dun have faith to do what excatly He wants me to do...arggghhhh!!!!!,,, i dun like myselffff.......i really hate myself......Huhuhuhhuuu...nda lama gila la sa ni....ehehhee..palis2 jauh2...ehehehe....but deeply in heart,i still have my God,i still want Him to be with..because He never wants to leave me alone to face my problemsss..even i have a harden heart, He will nvr give up to be with me...Thank God!!!!

lama sdh bah....

apuhhhhh....it's been so long oready ooo sa tdk penah cek blog sa...huhuuu..kesian jg kan ni...adeiii ssh bha teda laptop sndri...huhuuu...nasib sa mc ingat password sa...huhuhuhu...

Anyway..2009 was a great,great year.....many things happened...ada yg m'gembirakn,ada m'yedih kan....ada yg besa2 ja...huhuhu...but,it's great...im falling in luv wif someone,but i cant say,bcoz im afraid if "i clap one hand"...aahahahaa...we still good fren,in fact i still love that person until today...ahahahahaa...well,besa la manusia,takan la bah ko teda prasaan bha kn...huhuhu...

then, kita kasih tinggal last year punya matters..let's begin the new chapter n new life (hopefully).........

Belia Masuk Kampung 2009..

Thank God..20hb ~ 24hb yg lalu sa join juga Belia Masuk Kampung...OoOoo God,that was my great-great-great-great enperiences,thank you God becoz give me the opportunity to join the programme and give me such a beautiful and great experience...I can't say anything,only the memories will remain forever...i don't know whether i can join again the programme next year,..but i promise, i will go to visit my adopted family and all of them there again....well, i don't know when is the right time,but i will....ermm,.nah tu d bawa gmbr² masa BMK,tapi tdk suma la sa kc share...

Kami...L.c,Sherry,Ervina,Adrian,Me,Ron-e and Bodrick

Dari lapan org kami,..kami ber-4 di hantar masuk kampung di Nabawan,.Kampung Pementerian,Nabawan.

Bergambar bersama umat² di Kampung Pementerian, Nabawan..

Kami sama² dengan Belia St. Peter, Pementerian Nabawan..

Permandangan dari jauh,rumah keluarga angkat saya...siokkkkk

ahaaa...ni dia wajah² keluarga angkat saya..saya ada adik angakt kembar..hehee

saya dgn adik angkat..yang baju itam nama dia c Deang and yang baju putih c Deago

Little Buddy..c utakk...

aduhhhh..really miss there...

Oley+Neol Wedding's Day

She's one of my bestfrens...huhuu,.married oready lorr....anywayy congratss to her and her husband....samuga durang happy and tabah menempuh dugaan sebagai suami isteri..ahakzzz..

Holy sacrament martimony di St. Francis Xavier Cathedral, Keningau..JB Olivia + Daniel Savio..

Hehehe...we're thier frenss...

Huhu..Jay,Chie and Me..Kawan satu skul..basar sdh masing² kan..ngehheee

Wedding dinner d Juta Hotel, Me, Oley, Chie, Moi and Jay...kes dizzy² sdh..

another frens will be married soon..ngehehe,wait n see..

Program Pembentukan Belia K'uskupan Keningau..31st May ~> 9th June 2009

Really lucky..kmu tau napa sa ckp mcm tu..huhuu..mimang pun kamu tdk tau kan..yaa,..sa btul² lucky dpt join ni program..bukan saja sa dpt bnyk input msa ni program,tapi sa dpt ramai kwn belia dri sluruh k'uskupan kgau...imagen la 10 hari ni program,1st time ni kana buat d K'uskupan K'gau..huhuu,..dan yang paling penting im the only one from KSFX...aduiii,..nasib la sa ni buli bawa diri..huhuuu..tapi wat's most imprtant, sa dpt melayani lbh mantap dlm pelayanan belia...thank God...tapi yg sedih kan sa tdk dpt ikut Program Belia masuk Kampung...aduhhh sa dengar sikit ja urg ikut,.sa bz bah, bnyk hal sa mo urus ni...tapi tiapa la..kalo sa mc muda lagi nanti,ada 'chan' jg ikut tu....ehehehe...ermm..nah ni di bawah gmbr² sa sma kwn² masa Program Pelayanan Belia....yuuhhoooo....:~~>

Ni bilik yg kami stay..ada 7 urg kami cni..sa mc igt no bilik kami tu..111 ka...ehehhe..sepa punya kaki plak tu?...

nah tgk c sherry sma shane...durang plak bah yg brabis...ehehee...then yg control macho kunun tu c bert merangkap best buddy masa ni program..

Kawan² belia dari beaufort sma membakut..ehehee..yg slbah sa tu c deon,yg baju putih c ron-e n sblah dia c chris....nakakan ko no?..ehhehee Bo..leh!!!

ni plak sa sma kwn² belia dri tambunan n kemabong...yg baju itam c joe,yg baju merah sblah kiri c andrew n sblah kanan allen... uii allen napa ko malu tutup mata?..ehehe

Lawa kan dia..ehehee..padan kan kami..nghehee..c jay nama dia...

c Bonidy kwn belia dri kemabong..kami kc surprised dia...ahahaha...

Apa bah drg c sherry tgk tu...len oooo...ngehehee

C lexsen,bert sma sa,

sa sma c prisca,,ngehehhee,..narius jan marah!!

yeahhh..congratss utk kami...Kumpulan Bo..LEH!!...yg bediri d blakang left to rite..fred, sa, Joe,..yg duduk left to rite..jane,nong,babra sma richie

Best buddy...urg thailand @ urg Membakut...ehehee..campin bha dia ckp thai ni..ekeke,kan Bert

C joe sma c Lisa...cantik bah c lisa da blang c Joe...ehehehe

ahhh...sa panat meng'upload..ehehee..yala ckup la....

UNDUK NGADAU 2009...

Jeng..jeng²...huhuuu...this year unduk ngadau queen goes to Miss Appey Rowena from Papar,yeahh urg Papar,opkos bangga,tapi sa urg Keningau...ermm..bulih tahan, cantik...sa pun sudah ada rasa² bha tu yg dia BO..LEH!!..hehehe..1st runner up Miss Pearl wakil dri DBKK, 2nd runner up Miss Joanne Kimberly dari Penampang,3rd runner up Miss Flina dri Tamparuli, 4th runner up Miss Jacqueline dri Keningau, 5th runner up Miss Frederica dari Tuaran and 6th runner up Miss Elina dari Likas...huhuuu...actually sa teda p tinguk bha masa d Hongkod,sb masa 31st ~ 9 jun sa ada ikut program belia d KSFX,...huhuu,tapi sa tatap ikut pkembangan kaka ni...sa takajut jg la yg Miss Keningau ada no...ehehee.,,sb sa tdk target dia masuk Top 15 tu..tapi satu kali sa tgk muka dia masa d hongkod,buli tahan jg cantik,cantik dari yg da ikut district...huhuu,well mgkin make up artist da yg btul² mo dia cantik kan...yaaa....pa'jaat jg la sa ni kan...anyway,..congratsss girll.....Keningau Onsoi.....

left to right: 5th place Miss Jacqueline (Keningau), 3th place Miss Joanne Kimberly (Penampang), 1st place Miss Appey Rowena (Papar), 2nd place Miss Pearl (DBKK), 4th place Miss Flina (Tamparuli), 6th palce Miss Frederica (Tuaran)..Yg dari Likas tdk nmpak muka dia...siou....

Bah ni muka² sumandak olumis Top 7:

Miss Appey (Papar)

Miss Pearl (DBKK)

Miss Joanne Kimberly (Penampang)

Miss Flina (Tamparuli)

Miss Jacqueline (Keningau)

Miss Frederica (Tuaran)

Miss Elina (Likas)

Bah...kita tunggu pulak sepa yg manang taun dapan....ehehee